3/18/09

It's a hush hush secret...

If ever you read this, know that this is not at its full yet. Still, there are many 'plotholes' that need fixing. Three terms are just what I need of you, just in case you may stumble upon my site: 


1) DO NOT tell anyone else about my site....EVER

2) DO NOT SPAM MESSAGES...since everyone agrees that spamming is bad

3) enjoy...if you can. 

Any breech of these terms will mean absolutely nothing. You may not get physically, emotionally, or psychologically harmed, but know that you have broken an agreement, and let your conscience eat you alive... 

Good Day

3/6/09

I don't want it to end yet!

Beginning nung school year, I made a promise, tatlo actually. Haha... So parang hindi na kailangan pang iexplain. 


Long story short, wala ni isa mang bagay natupad ko. Whatta nice...

Shshshshhshshshshshshshshshshshshshshshshshshfuck

3/1/09

Di ko Feel Graduation

by SYMBO

Di ko feel ang graduation.

Ngayon ang last regular school day (hindi pa nga regular dahil sa napakahabang general assembly)
Bukas half-day.
Pag uwi ko sa bahay ang dami kong gagawin.
Projects and homeworks galore.

Bukas na raw ang deadline ng project sa TLE.
Eh nasira computer ko. Nandun yung files ko.
So uulit na naman ako from scratch. Mamaya.
Makapag submit kaya ako bukas?

Ngayon ang deadline ng English Term Paper.
Di pa ako tapos doon.
Kahit matapos ako, ang dami namang kulang na dapat nagawa na the past two terms.

3 days from now, pasahan ng Calculus reflection paper.
Siguro kaya pa.
Pero medyo mahirap.
3 pages, long bond.

Almost forgot, PFS.
Deadline nun ngayon din.
Wala pang nangyayari sa PFS namin.
Anung gagawin namin dun?
Halos lahat ata kelangan baguhin.
Kelan kami makakapagpasa?
Sira pa naman computer ko.
Nandun yung ibang files ng PFS namin.
Goodluck sa'min.

Exam week na nga pala.
The day after tomorrow, finals na.
Tatlong araw ang exams.
Kelangan mag-aral.
At kelangan din gumawa ng mga project at hw during those days.

Di ko feel ang graduation.
Di ko nga feel ang exam week eh.
Puro project at homework pa rin.

Ang hirap.
Kung kailan matatapos na ang 4th year at buong high school, tsaka pa dumating ang lahat ng naglalakihang schoolwork.
This is the most hectic schedule we've ever had.
And it came to us at a very good time: FINAL EXAM WEEK

Di ko feel ang graduation.
Pag hindi ako nakapagpasa ng mga requirements na toh?
Gagraduate pa kaya ako?

Di ko talaga feel.

Sana buhay pa ako pagkatapos ng week na ito.

2/12/09

I thought you cared at the least...

Akala ko pa naman, may pag-asa ka pang mag bago. Bale wala lang pala yung mga "speeches" nung mga teachers natin. Akala ko talaga...


Sooooo, may ninakaw ka sakin. Bad enough na sakin na nag-nakaw, pero kailangan pang sa tatay ko pa yung ninakaw mo. Masaklap na yun sa ganung paraan, pero kailangan mo pa akong wag pansinin diba. So kung nang hihingi ka sakin ng mga bagay-bagay parao ayus lang sakin, kumbaga sige lang ng sige diba, tapos nung ako na nang hingi ng konting oras na sagutin mo lang ako ng maayos, wala. Katuwa tuwa ka. Halos murahin mo pa ako nung nag tatanong ako. 

Sa tingin ko noon, akala ko matino ka, akala ko talaga. Nagkamali nanaman ako sa akala ko. Kung puwede lang. 

PS: Buong apat na taong kitang kasama, ngayon mo pa ko ginago. 
PPS: Nagulat ka pa na madadamay ka. Naku-nako mag-isip ka...

2/10/09

in building walls

A form of barrier against the elements, walls provide secure detachment from the world. It ensures direct separation from the inside and the outside. It is not, perse, a wall if you place an opening, or a door, or a window; in this way, the definite line between inside and outside is blurred. 


As a support structure, it is not much of one. It does not carry any load, except for itself. To make a wall support anything other than itself, beams and posts are added. With these additions in place, it cannot be a wall anymore, since the lateral force needed to bring a wall down is different with support structures embedded in it. 

As a form of trial, walls are used to block troops from coming in. These walls are fortified to withstand any incoming attacks. If the wall falls down or falls apart, it cannot be considered a wall anymore. It will have lost it defining characteristic as a blockade or protection. 

To climb up a wall brings no shame to the identitiy of the wall. It is, by far, the gratest way to overcome this wall, without removing the defining characteristics of the wall itself. With the act of climbing, it still provides a barrier, since itstill blocks, fully, the inside from the outside. In climbing, also, no purpose is executed to support anything else, not even the climber, thus the wall remains to be as that. Also, it still provides a challenge to the climber as it is strenuous to scale up and down the vertical face of the wall. 

They say, in fact, that "people build walls, so that they can see those who care enough to climb them". 

2/2/09

A friend's freiend's friend's poem

I can not take credit for this untitled poem, but here it is, so beautifully written. 


Have you ever watched kids 
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain 
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast..
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

2/1/09

MIB: Men In Black

I remember this scene from MIB I. Kay was using MIB technology to spy on his beloved, but with distance, since he, and all the other agents at MIB, "do not exist". Jay enters the scene and quickly figures the relation of Kay to the woman in the PC. Kay hastily shuts off the PC. The two engage in a very... memorable conversation...


Jay: You know what they say. It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. 
Kay: Try it. 

Those two lines depict the bottomline of their conversation. 

At the sequel, MIB II, Jay is now assigned a mission to bring back Kay from his previous 'neuralized self' to find the light of zartha. In the precess he meets this girl, Laura. He eventually falls in love with this woman, but as he soon finds out, she is the light of zartha and must leave soon. 

Long story short, Laura leaves earth, but without Jay having regrets, 'it was for the good of the earth'. As he is "confided" by his collegues, in which I have no real interests in the dialogues, I could see Jay's pain, on how he had wished to have never loved at all, than to have loved and lost. 

1/17/09

Don't read if ur sick and tired of reading UPCAT - related posts

My dad toured me around UP Diliman as if I was going to study there eventually. I was almost regretful since I did have no assurance of weather I'd pass the UPCAT. I really did feel so sad if I would disappoint my father. 


Alas, a call from my brother came. He told me I passed in UP Diliman, I was ecstatic. As I told my parents, my mom especially, they shouted for joy (literraly). As I gazed into my father's eyes, I didn't see a scent of disappointment. For a time, I was happy. 

My mom on the other hand, belittles my chosen course, the course I personally chose, and the course I personally passed. She was disappointed that I got accepted in a course that would yeaild a so-so paying job. But, that was not what I was looking for when I chose that course. I was looking for a fulfillment, a unique fulfillment. 

For a time, I was confident that I have acheived a milestone, finally I was accepted in a university. But now, it seems that I face another anxiety brewing in the nearing horizon, would I overcome this time, the troubles and hassles of the life at this University? What would come next? What would happen next? 

1/15/09

I owe him two

Jimbo, alalahanin mo lang sa pagtanda mo. May kaibigan kang hiningan ng tulong. At siya ay bukas-palad na tumulong sa iyo, hindi lang isang beses kundi dalawang beses. 


Tandaan mo ang ginawa niya para sa iyo. Tandaan mo. 

1/13/09

Winnie the Pooh is Haunting me?! wtf

I have seen about 15 Winnie the Pooh's today. For the past week, I have seen more. Did I do anything to upset the ghost of Winnie the Pooh? I hope not. 


It feels like he's always there, standing beside me with watchfull eyes. Call me crazy but I can feel his presence, Its like what my mom tells me, "nagpaparamdam". Is there something that I have done to see Winnie the Pooh's everywhere? I'm really wondering. 

1/3/09

The one-hundred seventy seventh post

There really is nothing particularly special about the number. Come to think of it, it has no relation to the post. I just made this to look at the past events concerning the Past New Year and Christmas. I just wanted to tell what I came to see on those 'happy' days. 


CHRISTMAS 
The eve before this special daywas nohing short of special, although my tito did not visit our grandparent's house, in which we were staying. I got dresesed in my fancy new clothes,which were a little too big for me, for that night's simbang gabi. Needless to say that the church was packedfull of people, just enough for me to not understand what was happening in the mass. Afterwhich, we got home, and prepared for the Noche Buena. We are, but not as much as the past years. The morning thatcame after was the time for my family, to depart for our home once again. 

NEW YEAR
'Bagong taon ay may Bagong buhay'. This year came diferent than all the other New Years I have had. I didn't make any resolution. I plan to live out my year day by day, and not worry about matters that may make me anxious or stuff. I sure do hopw I fulfill this goal. (Uhh, isn't that a resolution, maybe, maybe not!?!)