I thought you cared at the least...

Akala ko pa naman, may pag-asa ka pang mag bago. Bale wala lang pala yung mga "speeches" nung mga teachers natin. Akala ko talaga...

Sooooo, may ninakaw ka sakin. Bad enough na sakin na nag-nakaw, pero kailangan pang sa tatay ko pa yung ninakaw mo. Masaklap na yun sa ganung paraan, pero kailangan mo pa akong wag pansinin diba. So kung nang hihingi ka sakin ng mga bagay-bagay parao ayus lang sakin, kumbaga sige lang ng sige diba, tapos nung ako na nang hingi ng konting oras na sagutin mo lang ako ng maayos, wala. Katuwa tuwa ka. Halos murahin mo pa ako nung nag tatanong ako. 

Sa tingin ko noon, akala ko matino ka, akala ko talaga. Nagkamali nanaman ako sa akala ko. Kung puwede lang. 

PS: Buong apat na taong kitang kasama, ngayon mo pa ko ginago. 

PPS: Nagulat ka pa na madadamay ka. Naku-nako mag-isip ka...

in building walls

A form of barrier against the elements, walls provide secure detachment from the world. It ensures direct separation from the inside and the outside. It is not, perse, a wall if you place an opening, or a door, or a window; in this way, the definite line between inside and outside is blurred. 

As a support structure, it is not much of one. It does not carry any load, except for itself. To make a wall support anything other than itself, beams and posts are added. With these additions in place, it cannot be a wall anymore, since the lateral force needed to bring a wall down is different with support structures embedded in it. 

As a form of trial, walls are used to block troops from coming in. These walls are fortified to withstand any incoming attacks. If the wall falls down or falls apart, it cannot be considered a wall anymore. It will have lost it defining characteristic as a blockade or protection. 

To climb up a wall brings no shame to the identitiy of the wall. It is, by far, the gratest way to overcome this wall, without removing the defining characteristics of the wall itself. With the act of climbing, it still provides a barrier, since itstill blocks, fully, the inside from the outside. In climbing, also, no purpose is executed to support anything else, not even the climber, thus the wall remains to be as that. Also, it still provides a challenge to the climber as it is strenuous to scale up and down the vertical face of the wall. 

They say, in fact, that "people build walls, so that they can see those who care enough to climb them". 

A friend's freiend's friend's poem

I can not take credit for this untitled poem, but here it is, so beautifully written. 

Have you ever watched kids 

On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain 

Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast..
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.
The music won't last

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....

Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

MIB: Men In Black

I remember this scene from MIB I. Kay was using MIB technology to spy on his beloved, but with distance, since he, and all the other agents at MIB, "do not exist". Jay enters the scene and quickly figures the relation of Kay to the woman in the PC. Kay hastily shuts off the PC. The two engage in a very... memorable conversation...

Jay: You know what they say. It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. 

Kay: Try it. 

Those two lines depict the bottomline of their conversation. 

At the sequel, MIB II, Jay is now assigned a mission to bring back Kay from his previous 'neuralized self' to find the light of zartha. In the precess he meets this girl, Laura. He eventually falls in love with this woman, but as he soon finds out, she is the light of zartha and must leave soon. 

Long story short, Laura leaves earth, but without Jay having regrets, 'it was for the good of the earth'. As he is "confided" by his collegues, in which I have no real interests in the dialogues, I could see Jay's pain, on how he had wished to have never loved at all, than to have loved and lost.